I'm home

I was admitted to Queen Elizabeth hospital few days back......... I'll let you know the D's later. hehe anyway, I'm recovering :) my hands are still numb from all the needles, and i still have trouble walking. Okay, my grandma's here, I got to go.. well, at least I dropped a few words here. Later, guys.

Aaron Prabha

I met him during a talk in church. A prayer talk. More like a pray over. The first time I saw him was when he entered the room. I asked myself, who is this person? Is he sick? Everybody talked about him. "He had a stroke, he's just 21 years old" a woman told my mother and I. I, myself can't believe a young man, had a stroke when he's just 21.

Brother introduced us to him. Both his parents were nice people, so was he. We weren't close, but at least I got to know him for a tiny bit. He was funny. A very good person who people he knew, looked up to him. I saw something in him, like a light. Tho he was in pain, but he showed happy faces. And from then on, I knew. I knew he was going to Heaven, because God gave him a second chance in life. And so he took it, and thank god for the signs he had. Today, Aaron Prabha is in God's hand. I don't know it, but I feel it. And I'm sure everyone feels it as well. May you rest in peace, Aaron. Amen.

Close Enough

"Dear,
You asked me to leave, and it was hard. I just want you to know, my feelings for you were true. Everything was real. You gave me light and so much more. In this, is the only place I can write to you. Thank you for everything. Right now, I'm flying off to some where warmth exist, where I can be close enough to happiness again. No matter what, you'll always be part of me. And I want you to know that. I love you, Take Care. Goodbye."

Screw This, I Love It!

Take me im alive, never was a girl with a wicked mind
but everything looks better, when the sun goes down...
I had everything, opportunities for eternity and i
could belong to the night...
I, see your eyes, i can see in your eyes, your eyes...

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough...you make me wanna die
And everything you love...right up in the light
Every time i look inside your eyes...
make me wanna die

Taste me drink my soul, show me all the things that i
shouldn't know, when there's a new moon on the rise...
I had everything, opportunities for eternity and i
could belong to the night...
I, see your eyes, i can see in your eyes, your eyes,
everything in your eyes, your eyes...

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough...you make me wanna die
And everything you love...right up in the light
Every time i look inside your eyes...
(im running in the light)
Make me wanna die

I would die for you, my love, my love...
I would lie for you, my love, my love...
(make me wanna die)
I would steal for you, my love, my love..
(make me wanna die)
I would die for you, my love, my love

But up in the light...
Every time i look inside your eyes...
(im running in the light)
Up inside your eyes...(im running in the light)
Look inside your eyes...
Make me wanna die

He Loves You

If he loves you and you believe
chicka chicka drip drop on your knees
If he loves you when you’re dead and gone
kiss a kiss a killer kitty play along
But he’s crawled inside your wounded soul
hes never ever gonna let you go

So call him closer be a doll
gives you just a taste but you want it all
But if you stumble before you fall
take a little taste or you’ll lose it all

Maybe no one can move...

Morning, Citylights. so, i'm still awake, eating delicious Ferrero Rocher and hugging pooh bear. I haven't been able to think straight these past weeks. I thought it would be nice to stay at home just relaxing after school's over. But, no. I was so wrong. Everything's a mess at home. With my family, my very good friends, and myself. I'm a mess. How can you move on when the people you love is going away? pulling away from you? How can I try to move when not only one but around five people you love is leaving at the same time. You can't just move. It's hard to let go,but you need time to heal. I need time, I need my light again. No one knows how sad, how empty, how lonely I am. Not only that, but no one bloody knows how and what I feel deep inside. I'm hurting. And I'm tired of trying not to cry every now and then. Every time when night falls, the feeling exist. It's not only breaking or crying.. But needles poking in the meat of my heart and the sour burn painful lime liquid that had poured in makes it feel even worst. How can you deal with that? Although it's just a transitory of time, IT'LL ALWAYS BE THERE.

I drew this one. It's not that good, but
My treasured ones, Don't Leave.
Come Back...

F.O.S

I think I should STOP buying clothes from F.O.S! Like seriously, everyone has everything from that shop. Tho, they ARE cool T-shirts, Blouse, Pants, Or whatever and cheap.. but, Every where you go, 'I have that top' =.=" It's cool, but does it have to be like 'EVERYONE HAS THE SAME PAIR?'